These Messages of Divine Love are weekly intuitive card readings offered to share strength & hope for those building a heart-centered world. Sharing messages from our collective guides, Mother Earth, the ancients watching over us with a quick peek into what our future selves want us to know and how my protectress, Mother Mary, can add love to get us through the week. Each message includes chakra themes that help center our energy. I will post any extras on Patreon (paid): Temple of the Rose Gold Heart. Your subscription here is always FREE.
INTRO NOTES TO THE DECK & READING
The past year has been a lesson in the artifacts of my life. From emptying our basement for a massive repair job to emptying the skeletons in my closet to make room for new situationship and energy to get comfortable, I have had to confront many an old demon to find my way here today. One of the most surprising of them has been my wounds of abandonment.
I won’t bore you with the details of a life long-lived that found me masking my gifts so others would feel comfortable, so I would feel accepted. It’s a story all of us are familiar with, the feeling that we don’t belong - that we’re always just too much or not enough of everything. And once you hear that message in your life, it’s the one that burrows itself as insecurity into future relationships and encounters. Beyond mere criticism for a mistake we made, a traceable, temporary problem, these were messages that told us something was deeply wrong with who we really are - to the point that if we didn’t hide that flawed and unlovable being, we wouldn’t have a chance of finding a special someone or being successful.
The weight of that shame lives in our bones, the sinew and tissue holding us together. These are the adhesions passed onto us by generations before - a ritualistic hazing of every force that feeds on our separation and lack performed over millennia. By convincing us we’re not enough/too much for the people around us, we gravitate toward isolation, solitary confinement, and superficial experiences because somehow we’re undeserving of more by virtue of who we are.
Or at least that’s how it’s been for me. As I was in my hometown this past week, I found myself confronting ghosts of a Sacred Heart past. Staring up at the stations of the cross that I had gazed at for now forty-plus years, hearing the song that used to activate my calling, I was transported back to an ashamed teenager who was dealing with flashbacks and stalkers. I was reminded of the little old ladies who would ask me to lay hands on them in blessing and then gossip about me in the corner. “She’s undeserving. I heard she let a boy touch her between the legs. Slut.” That isn’t easy to hear at any age, but especially not at 13. By the time I left town that afternoon, I had convinced myself that I wasn’t worthy of any of my relationships, that I had to sacrifice and be invisible to be loved.
It is these distortions that we need to confront - the shards that were buried with the generations before us, keeping us tethered to some stoic individualism that keeps us isolated in denial of pleasure, love, and connection. We have to dig up these artifacts, acknowledge and understand them - but to rid ourselves of this curse over our hearts. Otherwise, how will we ever find ourselves deserving of the life we truly want to live?
Where We Are This Week
The Bone Collector (R)
Third Eye Chakra
For some of us (myself especially), we have been looking so hard for evidence of our wrongness that we are endlessly “healing” and never choosing to show up as “healed”. Yes, healing is neither linear nor complete, but there does come a point where we have to put down the shovel, stop splitting hairs, and choose to finally just embrace the wisdom, to drink down the medicine. Right now, we are in danger of creating things to worry about, stealing our own power just to have an excuse to keep looking for it. Realize when it’s time to shut down the search and instead just start living.
Messages from our Guides
Deep Freeze
Solar Plexus Chakra
It’s time to slow your roll just a little, friends. Despite the “deep freeze” listed here, think of this as a temporary reprieve to get your own house in order. Part of what we’re finding is what triggers us to go into a “freeze” response. For me, attention from a LOT of people will do it to me. Yet, if I want this newsletter to grow, if I want my message to spread, somehow, somehow I will have to be okay with getting attention, right? So the message this week is to take this pause as a sign that you need to unwind the cords of distortion from your body so that you can receive the great things that you’re planning to do.
Messages from Lady Gaia/Mother Earth
The Magical Map Shifter (R)
Crown Chakra
The disillusionment in which you find yourself has thrown you for a loop. You’re realizing that deeply held beliefs about how the world works, including your place in this world have knocked you about for most of your life. The truth of your power has been withheld from you, disconnected by a world that feeds on our pain to justify its cruelty. Now that we as a people are stepping out of this illusion, recognize how painful it is to face these truths. Have compassion for yourself and others as we start to figure out what the world should be instead of constantly making excuses for how it is.
Messages from the Ancients
Dry Desert (R)
Root Chakra
Just going to be blunt here - we have gained all that we can from the inquiry with our ancestors. They are waiting for us to integrate our learning, to call back our power, and to move forward in the ways that they couldn’t. But also…one very particular message came through that one family member, that one judgmental family member who has shut themselves off from any healing attempts - it’s time to move on. You can’t get an apology from them the way they are right now, nor will they have the kind of insight you’ve found. Where you see possibility, they only see a desert of emptiness. This is not your fault, but also not your responsibility. Send them your blessing and move on.
Messages from our Future Selves
Listening
Throat Chakra
As much as I am known for how much I talk, it is in the silence of the heart that I can truly hear the truth. One of my favorite mentors, Tomas Cody, used to say “Much can be communicated in silence.” For it is in the silence of meditation, the silence of a starry night, and the absence of distracting noise that we can finally hear the messages of divine love. This card offers a two-fold hope. First, if we stay true to ourselves and listen to the universe with an open heart all of our questions will be answered, prayers heard. The second is that if we have faith, the people who most need to hear our messages will have the openness of heart needed to find us. This is my prayer for me, you, and us together: An open heart will always hear the message.
Messages from Mother Mary
One Ring Circus (R)
Heart Chakra
The key to all of this is that no one can hear the message, not us, them, or any of us combined, if we’re going to keep ourselves so isolated that no one knows we’re even there. This is a harsh lesson for anyone whose strategy has been to stay small (like me). Either you go bold or just expect to stay home. Either you take the risk for connection or you remain satisfied with the shadows of the relationships you could have. Either you take a swing at bat or just resign yourself to never knowing if you could. Life is too short for what if’s…and no heart will hear your message if you refuse to share the audacity of who you are.
Undercurrent
Ride the Wave (R)
Sacral Chakra
I come from a landlocked state, so I lack some of the familiarity with surfing, the tides, or the vast waves of the ocean that many of you have - so forgive the imperfect analogy here. When I first saw this card, my heart dropped because it felt like the end of something good - a deflation of inspiration in the undercurrent. But it is just the end of this particular wave. Instead of waiting around complaining that the momentum we were riding has stopped, we need to swim back out and catch the next one that comes up. We weren’t meant to ride that wave forever - inspiration shifts, creativity flows, and moods pull us under - but what matters is not just what we experienced, but our willingness to get back in and do it again.
Final Advice
Talisman
Third Eye Chakra
This is one of my favorite cards on this deck. It represents the manifestation of all our wisdom, carried like a protective talisman, a powerful lantern to light our way forward. We don’t need to revisit these lessons, just crystalize them into something that symbolizes what we’ve gained. For me, it’s the rosary that I use when I start the Messages of Divine Love, a rainbow-beaded symbol of how I’ve integrated my Catholic, Latina background with my Rose Queen, Queer Geek Empress presence of today. Find or create a physical representation of these lessons you’ve found through your intuitive inquiry. Let it be a reminder of how far you’ve come and what goals you have on your horizon now. You are a new person who has earned this wisdom in the most authentic way possible: lived experience.
PARTING WORDS FROM A GEEK EMPRESS
It’s bisexual visibility week, a great chance to bring up The Mummy for a timely artifact of our connection. Not only is this a cult classic bisexual bonding film, but it is also an appropriate vehicle for this message of uncovering the artifacts of our connection.
When we start to uncover the rooted, broken shards of our collective past, we start to realize we are far more interdependent than any of us realize. We focus so heavily on our differences that we forget that those differences are as small and sacred as the flutter of a hummingbird’s wings. And as delicate as well. The words we speak to one another, and the ways we judge or accept each other have an impact. It can create genius works of art, inventions, and cultures that outlast us or it can create the wounds of separation…that also…outlast us.
See, we’re in a space right now where we’re about to become the ancients, the ancestors, the ascended elders, leaving behind artifacts for those who will come generations after us. As they try to unpuzzle how they wound up the way they are, how we died out with the songs still stuck in our hearts, we are leaving behind the evidence that will either give them the release of awareness or the burdens of shame.
The real curse of our time is that we all finally have access to information, readily available at our fingertips, summoned by poor impulse control and interpreted by incomplete media literacy. So we have a lot of people who have access to facts, but whose opinions are so easily manipulated that they are impervious to them. While we cannot reach them through facts and reason alone, we can reach them through the interconnectedness of this one growing truth: There has to be a better way.
To break this curse, we have only to reach out to one another - to be vulnerable and real with first ourselves, but then with others. As we wake up and share our stories, we find recognition in the struggles of another…and those people will start to recognize themselves in us too. By reaching out with recognition and even a small “I see you” we are creating a better way already. We have to stop looking to the past for answers and start reaching out to embrace each other if we want to survive long enough to become the ancestors this world needs.
No matter how these Messages find you this week, know that I am always with you in love 💖