These Messages of Divine Love are weekly intuitive card readings offered to share strength & hope for those building a heart-centered world. Sharing messages from our collective guides, Mother Earth, the ancients watching over us with a quick peek into what our future selves want us to know and how my protectress, Mother Mary, can add love to get us through the week. Each message includes chakra themes that help center our energy. I will post any extras on Patreon (paid): Temple of the Rose Gold Heart.
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INTRO NOTES TO THE DECK & READING
When the forces conspire against me, I just have to lean in and follow wherever they lead. This weekend I knew I would be juggling a lot with a board retreat, putting all the pressure on Sunday and Monday to finish this reading. Then Monday I woke with both a migraine and muscle spasms, forcing me to stay home and rest. But then at midday, we lost power for a few hours, delaying everything further when my phone was down to 3%.
So here I am drafting this as I get caught up at my own speed. I could give into the overwhelm and let the growth of all I have wrought overtake me or I could methodically cut myself a path to let in a little light without sacrificing the earth's reclamation of my heart & soul.
This is the theme this week as I work with the Fountain Tarot. This simple but exquisitely detailed deck offers clarity, a breath of fresh air when everything seems too overwhelming to make sense of it all. I don't know about you, but I could use those messages just about now.
Where We Are This Week
Seven of Coins (R)
Root Chakra
It’s one thing when we are tending our dreams, manifesting our desires through our labors. Here, too much of our time and energy is spent on the ambitions of others without much reward or recognition for our contributions. Could be a boss who hasn’t acknowledged our leadership skills, or a family member who has leaned on us a little too much lately - but the application of our energies to those who don’t show even a minimum of gratitude is taking us in the opposite direction of our dreams. At the start of this week, we’re re-evaluating where we put our time, talent, and treasure so it is more equitable and secure without risking our disillusionment from our path.
Messages from our Guides
Two of Pentacles (R)
Solar Plexus Chakra
Here is some tough love for those who need it spelled out more clearly - you are pulling yourself in too many different directions, keeping yourself from finding the balance and abundance you deserve. It is worth noting that carrying too large of a load, a disproportionate burden of the responsibility could be a sign of either co-dependence or a flight trauma response. By burying yourself in work, caregiving, or a cause, are you burying vulnerabilities and opportunities to connect? When you look at your priorities this week, seek those areas of your life where you can prune back those dead branches that are crowding out the new ones, and trim the growth so it won’t interfere with other dreams. Let go of the “I have to do this” excuse and examine what motivates you to tolerate this imbalance for so long. What is your true level of responsibility if all was truly fair?
Messages from Lady Gaia/Mother Earth
Ace of Swords (R)
Throat Chakra
We might no longer be riding the bucking bronco of Mercury Retrograde anymore, but that doesn’t mean that the timing will suddenly work out in our favor on several projects. In most things, the general advice is going to be “Don’t force it, let it happen in its own time” but right now I think we need to yell it louder for the people in the back. Don’t try to force an issue right now - stay put and wait this out. There are a lot of moving pieces trying to fall into place - many of us all lifting the same messaging at the same time. Forcing a confrontation, an idea, or a movement to follow any one specific lead will only fracture the efforts we’ve made so far. Very literally, we have to keep our swords in their scabbards until we hear the clarion call of the moment. The right time will present itself eventually, sooner than we think. But the more we try to force it, the more we sever what has already begun to form.
Messages from the Ancients
The Devil (R)
Third Eye Chakra
No one denies that we’ve done our fair share of shadow work lately, but now is the point where we have to finally make good on the promises to integrate that shadow self into a fully embodied version of our humanity, a radiant and yet potentially dangerous combination of confidence and integrity. The greatest threat to humanity is not the forces of “evil” that live outside ourselves, but the forces that face us in the mirror every day that are complicit in creating a world of restrictions that lead to temptations. We’re asked to make the bold choice to fully confront and address the “Devil” within. Only then can we understand how to expose and heal the evil that resides in the rest of our world?
Messages from Our Future Selves
Nine of Cups
Heart Chakra
Earlier in the year there were some hints and sparks of manifestation coming to life. It might have been brief or fleeting, like a spring break flirtation that we didn’t think would go anywhere…or the promise of a dream collaboration that fizzled or ghosted. The point was not for those moments to last, but to ripen the air, and awaken the senses so that when the real deal, the truly big dream starts to come to life, we aren’t too confined in self-pity or imposter syndrome to let it pass us by. Again…we can’t force the issue, but if we are to seize the moment, then the best way to prepare is to suspend the disbelief and grasp the cup firmly with both hands knowing we deserve to receive as much as it has been an honor to give.
Messages from Mother Mary
Nine of Swords
Crown Chakra
When I talk about the glimmers of manifestation that have been floating around us, I want to be very clear…those glimmers have been delivered alongside the cacophony of Pandora’s nightmares wrought on the world. This is not lost on Mother Mary, who stands as the bridge between the past (ancients) and the future (self). The card, always positioned sideways like this, offers us a clear path from the evil within to the dreams manifesting externally. The only way to make room is to face the nightmare we’ve been avoiding all along. Once it is faced though, it never has to hold power over us ever again. Remember that the Blessed Mother, no matter what name we call her or what form she arrives in our lives, is offering to hold us through the worst of the pain…assuring us that we are never alone and are always protected by her embrace.
Undercurrent
Ten of Coins (R)
Sacral Chakra
If the nine of cups earlier is a sign that all we want is coming to our door, the Ten of Coins reversed is a sign that there’s still a lot of clutter blocking the doorway where it is entering. The lack of balance I mentioned in the earlier part of the reading is to blame. Now is the time for some,e self-honesty about the competing priorities in your life. It doesn’t mean you can’t have ALL of what you want, but it’s about keeping focused on the manifestations that might increase others and nourish bigger dreams. If there was ever a need to prune our offerings to better nourish our priorities it is now. Since the timing isn’t right until we are into May anyway, now is a good time to have a good heart-to-heart with yourself about what you really want.
Final Advice
The Chariot
Solar Plexus Chakra
Now that we’ve passed through the big squeeze of the past month, starting in May we’re going to find ourselves at the mercy of forces much stronger, faster, and urgent than we’ve encountered before. Not bad, really…just exhilarating. But if we’re not ready to let go of some of the emotional clutter, we’re going to feel a lot less in control of the whole adventure. When that timing is right, we will be off on this new excursion of purpose, the horses/forces exerting themselves…so if our direction is not set, our course not clear, our pathway too cluttered, we’ll stumble right out the gate. Be ready…because when the time is right, the yes will be automatic.
PARTING WORDS FROM A GEEK EMPRESS
The closest analogy I can find to this week’s energy is Jumanji. For me at least, the past year has felt like I’m living in a completely different reality, with an entirely different set of skills (and physical presence) just barely trying to survive all the dangers that life has thrown at me.
Too much of the world feels like this, doesn’t it? We’re just trying to get by and we’re now thrust into this maddening world of fascist oppression, denial of genocide, and a worsening fracture in democratic ideals with every passing day. It isn’t that people won’t even listen to each other - we had already passed that goalpost long ago when Trump first ran for office. No, the problem is that we are so unwilling to see ourselves differently than the conditioning has taught us to feel, that we likewise cannot accept the changes that are needing to happen in our world to level us all up together.
It isn’t until the heroes decide to truly play the game, to throw themselves into their new roles that the magic of Jumanji reveals the hidden talents that were there all along. Quests, especially when we have companions on the journey, often show us a side of ourselves that was hidden by overgrown ambitions and dead branches of belief. That is what we are clearing out this week - making room to not just play the role we’ve landed in, but to truly take control of the game and regain our collective sense of reality.
Join me on May 9th
📣 20 Years of Polyamory ASK ME ANYTHING Live Event (Instagram Live) 📣
I’m so happy that one of my partners, @audaciousgrowth will be with me to help field your questions🥰 Head over to his page and get to know the great work he’s doing with assertiveness coaching from an ADHD perspective. A former therapist for some of the hardest populations to work with, Ted is the guy you want in your corner when you need to find a way out of webs of narcissism to get back into the sunshine of personal confidence and self-assuredness 💪🏼💛 Have some questions about polyamory? Be sure to send them to me here or through DM, or come ask them during the live! I am so excited!
I hope you can join me❤️ 🗓️ Thursday 5/9 at 12 MDT right here on Instagram live! Who will I see there?