These Messages of Divine Love are weekly intuitive card readings offered to share strength & hope for those building a heart-centered world. Sharing messages from our collective guides, Mother Earth, the ancients watching over us with a quick peek into what our future selves want us to know and how my protectress, Mother Mary, can add love to get us through the week. Each message includes chakra themes that help center our energy. I will post any extras on Patreon (paid): Temple of the Rose Gold Heart. Your subscription here is always FREE.
INTRO NOTES TO THE DECK & READING
All it takes is ten minutes on social media or reading the news to see how many Towers are breaking apart all around us. Many are waking up to just how powerless our powerful people are in preventing some of the worst atrocities. We are also seeing how powerful we can be collectively together. Now imagine if we were all pushing toward the same goal: a more heart-centered, trauma-aware world.
In the previous weeks, I’ve said “The most dangerous time in any relationship is when someone is trying to leave their abuser. Well, multiples of us are trying to leave oppressive systems - so don't be surprised that we're feeling this squeeze.” /“Hang on to your sanity, be as clear about your intentions as possible, and soon some cracks of relief will emerge so we can tend to the raw wounds of all this tension as this reckoning starts to bubble forth.” The relief might have been brief, like a shooting star across the sky, but it was there. A translucent sign to let us know the universe sees all the effort we’ve put in. To be without that reassurance in recent weeks has been hard on the system for sure…but one that has perhaps highlighted exactly what needs to change to bring that relief, that goodness back into our world again.
Remember that the storms come not to shatter us, but to strengthen us. They nourish Mother Earth, making up for all the ways we have denied her (and our) thirst. The storms wash away the debris, revealing what was once hidden and taken for granted. Use the energy of these storms to radicalize your heart to healing, to find courage in the cleansing power of renewal coming for us.
Where We Are This Week
The Tower (R)
Crown Chakra
We have been warned and warned to leave the old Towers. It is too late to try to salvage the old, it’s coming down around us and we have to leave now. If we don’t, we will get buried under the collective trauma of those who didn’t do their soul’s homework during the pandemic break. Mourn the loss of this old reality, but don’t abandon the leadership role we’ve been given in building a better world. Instead of leaning into despair, begin to inhabit your role today. What will YOU do to lead us out of these tragedies? What is your part to play? This week is about, taking in a deep breath, gathering our courage, rolling up our sleeves, and getting to the big work we’re here to do.
Messages from our Guides
Wheel of Fortune
Third Eye Chakra
In surrendering to change we also humble ourselves to the spin of fate. Scary for most of us…we don’t trust the outer world and we especially don’t trust whatever fate has up their sleeve. But what if, nothing was about fate, but rather just about following the magnetism of where we are in this moment? When we realize that our lives are more about how we respond in the middle of a situation instead of how well we strategize our long-term desires, we have a much more enjoyable voyage on this earth. How can we lean into the magic of the moment and let Lady Luck do her thing?
Messages from Lady Gaia/Mother Earth
King of Pentacles (R)
Solar Plexus Chakra
In my personal lore, the King of Pentacles reversed is Greed personified. He is Mr. Capitalism running a boiler room of leering excess, laughing at us in all our pathetic poverty. He hoards wealth and resources so he can be the man with the most control. This card speaks so strongly to me about the absolute source of our suffering - how deeply embedded this persona is within literally every single system. (Recommended reading: “Every Billionaire is a Policy Failure” by Ann Lipton). Recognize where in our world we see that power and control used as a toxic balm for the deep wounds of separation and pain that are festering underneath us…who personifies this right now?
Messages from the Ancients
Judgement
Heart Chakra
Hey there, beautiful! How can you not see how worthy you are? Our past is calling out to us to remind us that in all of our struggles, and all of our trials, we have always been worthy of the life, the blessings, the joys, the love that we have received. It doesn’t matter how short-lived it was or how much others criticized or judged you…that happiness was meant for us, to help sustain us, to remind us that yes, we are worthy. Just because some of those joys are in the past instead of the present, doesn’t mean we can’t align with the deservingness that was there all along.
Messages from Our Future Selves
Six of Swords (R)
Throat Chakra
Soon, if not already, we must change how we discuss the narratives of our past. Just like every time I dredge up my trauma to fill in a new partner about where I’m at and how to care for me, the stories we tell matter. It is only when I hear the words come out of my mouth that I realize I’m focusing more heavily on the blame or shame and not enough on the radiance that came from my healing. In reinforcing the hurt, I keep it alive. But when I talk about how I became the hero I needed for myself, my whole visage changes. Hear your own words reflected back at you. Is this how you want to be known? Where can you adjust so you aren’t so tethered to what was and start describing some of the peace in your present and the hope for the future?
Messages from Mother Mary
Three of Pentacles
Sacral Chakra
Let’s face it, no one is truly, 100% “self-made”. All of us had help: a teacher who put us on the right path, a friend who showed up to every performance, a parent who funded the rent while we got back on our feet. Embrace the humility of asking for help…and not just from divine sources. This is the time to use your words, light up that bat-signal, and ask the people you know (and maybe even take a chance on those you don’t) to support your endeavors. How can you turn your calling into a team effort that also serves their callings?
Undercurrents
Knight of Cups (R)
Heart Chakra
There is a tendency when examining the past, assessing our humility to navel-gaze ourselves into inaction. But all that does is pour the guilt right back into our system, giving us an excuse to sob into our empty cups instead of wiping our brow and getting back into the good fight. All of us have been through some deep emotional turmoil that has soured our ability to trust each other. We have also been doubting our judgment, questioning so much that we give a suspicious glance even at those who step forward to help. Don’t hold the current clan of companions responsible for what others did before they arrived, but also find some forgiveness for yourself so you aren’t stuck in freeze mode when we need you most.
Final Advice
The Devil
Root Chakra
Full disclosure: despite my Catholic upbringing don’t believe in Evil. I don’t believe there is a Devil. I believe humanity has constructed numerous scapegoats to get away with justifying the evil inside of us - the evil that comes bubbling up from jealousy, fear, and separation. Ordinarily, I interpret the Devil card as “the devil within” but right now we need to look at the players and systems that have been tying us down. It is especially worth looking at those entities that benefit from our collective co-dependent relationship with capitalism, greed, scarcity, and control. We are all waking up to how we’ve enabled “the devil” to keep us locked in ignorance as if it were a virtue.
PARTING WORDS FROM A GEEK EMPRESS
Half of the planet is in a deep reckoning of balance, trying to find ways to connect; while the other half are fighting over the ever-moving goalposts of duality. Spreading forth from the global south, we are finding the true consequences of our “I’m not political” ignorance. Many who have felt betrayed and left behind by the promises of freedom are finding just how deferential our liberty (ugh, I hate that word) is to the mighty forces of greed. The weight of it is daunting - especially as we look around and see the world so shattered and frozen in its denial.
That denial is perfectly shown in the series Snowpiercer, one of my favorites (thankfully coming back!). As I was writing about the Mother Earth card, I kept seeing Wilford’s sneering face swim to the surface. Only his selected few (and the Tailies who jumped on board) survive the consequences of our collective actions. Played to perfection by Sean Bean, Wilford is the dangerously charming smile of evil who won’t rest until he holds dominion over a cold, crusted earth entombing humanity. The whole premise is a study of who we become when the rules have been suspended - how do we organize ourselves, where do our allegiances lie?
Like all good sci-fi the same holds for where we are right now…the questions we are watching play out, that we are asking in our hearts. Even me, someone who has been trained in public policy, law, and peacemaking - a girl who dreamed of running for office - I have had to face numerous biases and assumptions that I didn’t realize were undermining everything. If I had been in political office at this time, as some of my colleagues are now, my healing would have never been complete enough to withstand the collision course we are headed toward.
I would have laid myself across the tracks as a sacrifice - repeating lifetimes of patterns both in my bloodline and whatever is remembered through our collective past. Instead, I’m holding my ground, collecting my beloveds, sharing a message of love & hope and using all my energy to create safety for my communities to survive and thrive when the storms have finally passed.
We have to trust that we are right where we are supposed to be so that our anxiety doesn’t cause us to repeat the old patterns and dismiss the lessons that were so hard-won. As scary as these storms are, we have already proven that we can withstand them - especially if we choose to stand together. The question is…what will we stand for?
Coming Soon…
My life as a leader has been designed around one grand belief: the infinite capacity of the human heart to generate, receive, and project Love.
Like you, I’ve been isolated, seemingly standing alone for so long that it’s hard to trust others will respond if I reach toward them. Many, including me, are tasked to become bridges of understanding between these disparate worlds. We stand at the crossroads helping the weary find their way out of the decay of their trauma and into the interconnectedness that could heal all of us.
A calling like this requires courage and faith to pursue. But, if the history of my calling has taught me anything, it is that our mission is not complete until we have champions, colleagues, and chosen family who can fill in where we are still developing. My own transformation has urged me to pour myself into creating a network of support around people doing this kind of work - for us to be shields for each other.
In the next month, I will be developing a monthly group for heart-centered healers, leaders & activists to come together in support of our various projects. I am still developing the format - but if you want to be added to the invite list - send me a message:
May this reading carry my love and blessings to strengthen you, no matter what the week may bring 💖
Reminder!
Join me on May 9th
📣 20 Years of Polyamory ASK ME ANYTHING Live Event (Instagram Live) 📣
I’m so happy that one of my partners, @audaciousgrowth will be with me to help field your questions🥰 Head over to his page and get to know the great work he’s doing with assertiveness coaching from an ADHD perspective. A former therapist for some of the hardest populations to work with, Ted is the guy you want in your corner when you need to find a way out of webs of narcissism to get back into the sunshine of personal confidence and self-assuredness 💪🏼💛 Have some questions about polyamory? Be sure to send them to me here or through DM, or come ask them during the live! I am so excited!
I hope you can join me❤️ 🗓️ Thursday 5/9 at 12 MDT right here on Instagram Live! Who will I see there?